HVORFOR SKAL JEG VÆRE SÅ FUCKING BANGE!? Hvorfor kan jeg ikke bare være ligeglad med hvad fremtiden bringer!? For helvede!

Screaming.

This was the very least thing I'd wanted to do. My heart is screaming for me to go back in time, and do all of this not happening........

Facade? xD

Nu vil jeg putte en facade op. Så nu er jeg glad! Jeg skal være sammen med en veninde senere, som jeg ikke har set længe, så jeg skal virke glad! Jeg kan godt! Det burde ikke være så svært. Jeg skal jo bare høre noget glad musik og lade som om jeg er glad! :D

I don't even feel like listening to music.

Everything is gonna be okay

Never gonna give up,
Live my life.
Feel better each and everyday,
Not gonna quit so there,
Sick of this shit so there.
Yeah, Everything is gonna be okay.

For helvede...

... hvor er det dog længe siden jeg har været så fucking langt ned og forvirret. Jeg er bare nød til snart at se dig igen!

It's a beautiful lie....

Den sang passer utroligt godt på mit liv lige nu. 

Lie awake in bed at night
And think about your life
Do you want to be different?
Try to let go of the truth
The battles of your youth
'Cause this is just a game

It's a beautiful lie
It's the perfect denial
Such a beautiful lie to believe in
So beautiful, beautiful lie it makes me

It's time to forget about the past
To wash away what happened last
Hide behind an empty face
Don't ask too much, just say
'Cause this is just a game
Everyone's looking at me
I'm running around in circles, baby
A quiet desperation's building higher
I've got to remember this is just a game

(So beautiful, beautiful
It's a beautiful lie
So beautiful, beautiful
It's a beautiful lie
So beautiful, beautiful
It's a beautiful lie
So beautiful, beautiful)